i know. i know. been awhile. but let's pretend it hasn't.
do you remember biking? when you were a kid? oh man, my sisters and i cruised our neighborhood like we owned the place. actually, pretty seriously, convinced that we were a posse with some authority. if you could pick up enough speed-- if the wind in your ears was so loud you couldn't hear someone yelling at you as you whizzed past-- you had certainly earned some pride. some neighborhood clout.
the days have all piled on top of each other. sometimes it really feels like those sun-filled bike riding mornings were yesterday. maybe 3 years ago. maybe.
but then i walk out my kitchen door.
i see my kids just starting out on their bikes.
my kids. my own babies. so excited about this new freedom. their very own vehicle.
it has been such a little gift to watch them try. to fall. to try again.
to concentrate. to succeed.
then to watch them be sweet siblings. oh how sweet they are. a lot of the time.
it has me thinking about my own bike-filled childhood. and then all those heavy-joys involved in parenting. days passing. inches gaining. legs no longer fitting in my lap. things like this.
i would not be the first or the last to examine the scale of passing time. the days are sweet. very sweet. each one passes and builds on itself. i see myself-- blond pigtails zooming down the black pavement on my blue banana-seated bike.
and then i'm here. now. watching my own babies grip those handle bars. delight in the wind. steady the front tire as they head into the grass.
truly weighted-joy. that kind that brings tears. a jumbled mix of joy and grief.
oh it's a beautiful life, friends.